~Welcom to Asha's world~

2009-11-06T10:50:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone!!

Sorry for not blogging for so long... I will start blogging those from Tuesday - Friday!!! =D

Tuesday, 3rd November 09

Anyway i got a job and just started working last Monday...

At first i was stressing myself whether to work or not, and felt a little insecure. But when stepped in, it was a little kecoh because i didn't have my pass to enter and i saw that irritating Auntie called "May" again. So my colleague brought to the security and left my belongings there bcos big and bulky things are nt allow to bring in, to prevent from stealing...

After that, I tried to adapt slowly to my surroundings around me... Slowly I felt that it was very relaxing job and some of my colleagues were friendly and nice. And some totally busybody... Well what to do just have watch what I'm doing... And there were two counter "Lolli" & "Njoii". My counter is "Lolli". It sounds very cute too... haha...

Then started to chat with my colleague. She share with me abt her problem about his sickening boyfriend and her family. Heard from her that she's a egoist person, easily jealous, hit her and doesn't like her to talk to ppl even girls... betul sia gile... selfish who's only think about himself... Haiz... I salute her man! she stil can tahan him for almost 10 mths of BGR... If it was me i would have take renvenge and whether that idiot accept or is nothing to do with me... Haha.. Sorry i sounds hrash opps...

While she told me abt her bf, she also mentioned abt her family that don't care about her... whether she has problem or not but her parents still called her to come back when it is real night.

The way she described and her tears almost flowing out... So as well as her friends @ school doesn't wanna go out with all bcos of her bf easlier jealous... Haiz

I thought about it to myself and I am very bliss to a family that cares whether they threw my stuffs away or not, sisters who showered their love for me like a mother and a father... A mother that love to play games, friendly and new, and a father who always come home late and drunk and when he recovered, he is a very nice and friendly father who doted me... As well as a uncle that showed his support for his family and support them no matter what... who will always remind my sisters and I to be filial to my own father no matter what,

Now then I knew how blissed I be to be... But I didn't know last time... But now I know...

I just thought it through recently, i want to be a good daugther, sister, niece, granddaughter and show care and concern every second and minutes that i can before they disappear one day and never came back...

And friends who are reading this whether good or bad, close or not close friend...

Thank you for entering into my life. Life are full of ups and downs. It's how u face it and dont escape...

Really pleased and thanked i had such wonderful friends around me!! And I'm touched by everything single things...

Thank You Allah for every single bits and pieces things of my life...

Loved you guys so much!!! =D

Cheers

Ashalina aka Shu Min

ps: Life is puzzle, all broken down into pieces. But you able to fix it, it will be a wonderful memories...

TO BE CONTIUNED!!!

Lessons Learn!!

2009-10-25T22:43:00.000-07:00

Salaams and hello everyone!!

I'm school now!! But i'm super early today!! Haiz! I thought that today there's CARE lesson. when i messaged Louise

Me: Where u nw?

Louise: I'm at home!

Me: huh? today no CARE lesson meh!

Louise: no lah, If got care Mr Chong will say on Friday.

Me: huh, But i'm in school already! how?

Louise: u late very late, early very early... Don't know hw to say u!!

Yup after that I went to Library for computer but the stupid system reallly stupid... so i went up up MLC for computer. And now i'm typing this for you guys!!

Sorry so long didn't blog!! Haha Happy man!! My Mio internet finally installed but only can use until 1 am but ok lah!!

And also I went to Hadith class @ Darul Arqam. It is a very useful class about Prophet Muhammad (saw).. Also the ustaz his good man!! haha!!

I'll share with your next time. I have to go off for PRN class!!

I will definitely doze off haha!!

Till then

Tita!!

My day, Your day

2009-09-30T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hey!!

Everyone!!!

I'm sorry for not blogging for so long.... Due to my internet connection Sorry!! I'm having a grt time in this during but also had up and down...

And like to wish all Muslims a Eid Mubarak & Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin!! :)

HEHE...

Haiz, time again passed so soon!! And now is the month of October!! haha

I would to wish those Otober babies'

A Happy Birthday!! And including me!! haha

Hehe!! Thank you Louise, Felicia & Shirley for your Advance birthday present!! XD
Haha i love it!!

The terapins so cute!! haha jus like me!! opps* xD

haiz getting older and older each year, but old or older life still have to go on.

Because life is only temporay, so no matter what enjoy while u can, learn knowledge and skills while u can... And at the end you will find that LIFE is indeed wonderful and meaningful!! :D

I wonder when the results relisting!! I'm nervous haiz!!

Love!!
~Me~

p.s: I will never forget the things that you had told me.... :)

2009-08-06T10:38:00.000-07:00

Hi

I will blog real soon!! Because figuring out how to change blogskin... hehe... sorry for not blog for so long..(:

Peace
x)

2009-06-13T20:52:00.000-07:00

Hello!!

Everyone!!! haha sorry for not blogging for so long!!! How r u today everyone!! :)

Wow time passed now it's holiday!! Insya'Allah i can find a job before Ramadan... Ameen
Monday and Tuesday will be my busiest day, because both my class and class AP have to do trial game before the actual one... And also double check with what we need or don't have for last minutes shopping!! Alhamdulillah my class are not involve in Asian Youth Games!! yes ah!! And I'm looking forward after the whole Team building for our Juniors!! Haha!! Then it's time to play!! wakaka!!
Can't wait to play Luge and the skyride haha... yes!!!

Going up to Luge!!

Ready get "GO"!!

haha!! Just can't wait to go there and for one ride it is only $11!! Haha!!

Haiz... Why are there so many weird people who "unintentionally" like cheat people's feeling!! but the weirdest thing was asked question like eg. Tell me about my "unique personalities" and many more all!!

Let's change subject!!

Well maybe it's time for you to go and find Allah and have fun!! No matter what thank you for letting me taking care of you when it was ur curial period!!

Farewell my beloved O.T.M!! I Love you very much!! Though the period of time were short. But it was really nice meeting you... Dear Allah, Thank you for sending him to my life, took care of him when it was his curial moment... Alhumdulillah that he was able to eat and live like a normal terrapin before his death... Though It's sad to see him leave, but i guess he is now in Jannah(Heaven) playing with my previous generations terrapin and swimming too!! right now!! :) love you!!

Cutenya!! O.T.M Love ya and farewell!! Insya'Allah I'll see you there!! :)

All right I'll blog again both ya!! Goodbye and Take Care!!

2009-04-08T10:16:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!!

Mmm... Where should I start? It happened alot of things at the end of March & beginning of April... Which was like now!!!

If I can I really didn't want to face the REALITY... But it's a test God has place us in to overcome all this hardships...

I really wanna apologised to My Beloved two sisters who had been helping me to hide to the turth from my Uncle and Grandma... Thank You for always being there when I need both of you... And willingly to help me, stand by me and be by my side... Sorry for all the burdens that i had caused and troubled the both of you... I really didn't your to be with me when Uncle confront me this Saturday... I think I should take the cause of every responsiblities... And still thank you for backing me up!!

If really there's one day that both of you couldn't bare it... I shall face it myself and continue moving on... And Thank you for the two friends who had supported me, encourage me... And I know that God will not give us problems that we cannot settle... Insyallah!!!!

But It's just disappointed me that my grandma actually did such a things that are so no logic!!! If you think by throwing my Prayer stuffs and baju away will make me listen and obey... I'm sorry, you are wrong... No matter how many times you wanna throw... My answer will still be the same... Frankly speaking that I'm very2 sad, disappointed, angry and wanted to confront you... But I did not!! Cause no matter what you are still my grandma... And it's really stupid and unlogical to confront... There must be some way...

But all I can do is to do Doa and Insyallah that everything will be fine!! And my will power must be strong!!!

Ya Allah,

I pray that YOU will grant me with a strong will, protect me, guide me, forgive me, grant me with Knowledge that I can learn things easier and heal me when I'm hurt and also seek you when I need you... And I will always remember what I had owe you... You created me from soil and make everything that PREFECT... I will always remember you presence... Please guide me to the STRAIGHT PATH!!!

Ameen

And I'm going to Batam this coming Friday!! And I'll be looking towards it!! Before the REALITY shows up... Insyallah!!

Ameen

2009-03-10T10:37:00.000-07:00

Personality Test

Try out this interesting personality test at http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx and see how well the description fits you. Tag 10 people.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-03-10T02:15:00.000-07:00

Salaam and Hi everyone!!

I'm back once again...

Finally exams are over... But I'm bored man!!xD

Seriously don't know what to do during the holidays?
And before I start working? mmm...

But I guess, I just have to use my little small brain and think...Wahaha

Or probably will be busy going to and fro to Darul Arqam as there are events coming!!
Those who are interested pls... note me for enquiries** @ my Tagbox...
Bcos my phone lost so ya!! sad!!

Sigh... Seriously nowadays kids are getting more and more cunning, wicked, irritating, dishonset Spoil bred and many more... But i know not all are like that...hehe

I seriously can remembered that girl man who stole my phone... Although I know that Assumption is a sin in Islam... But I confirm plus grantees chop it's her... Somemore with her mother... But nevermind I pity them la... Cos everything happened for a reason=)

I like this poem from this Sister of mine...
I knew her threw Alif Music...
And wrote many beautiful poems or quote...
And I wanted to share!!!
Enjoy!!

"A Reason, A Season or a Lifetime……………
I have abridged some inspirational quotes to dedicate to all my friends.
May Allah guide us in His Light of Truth…………..

If someone comes into your life for a REASON,
They will guide you, support you, and aid you
Emotionally, physically and most of all spiritually
But without any shortcomings on your part
They will bring the relationship to an end

If someone comes into your life for a SEASON,
Your time has come to learn, to grow, to share
They will give you the peace, the joy, the lessons of life
But they come only for a while As they are for a season

If someone comes into your life for LIFETIME relationship
You will have a secure foundation
Build with joys and sorrows shared together
With love and care build on solid foundation
Sharing and forgiving no matter what happens
But most of all, loving one another for Allah
Together …….being lovers of Allah………..
Thank you so much for being a part of my life,
Whether you are a REASON, a SEASON or a LIFETIME"…………..

~Nur Sakinah Thomas~

2009-03-04T01:20:00.000-08:00

Hey!!

It's me!! Hahaha!! 4 more days to exam.... I'm quite nervous...Cos i don't know whether my head can squeeze in the whole book of POM or not haha... But i must definitely try...

Yesterday I didn't go to school bcos only 1h of POM lesson n also I'm late so didn't go school... Instead I went to the Changi Airport to study and emo!!! hehe

Because I can't stay my house cooking or this or that.... so I went to Terminal 1 and to make sure that there isn't sign of him but thankful there wasn't sign of him...

Before I began my studies... I went to browse around for food... And I decided to eat at Kiliney Kopitiam... I ordered Laksa and a cup of Milo... U know how much does it cost... $5.60!!! OMG!! The Milo drink so little not even full and the ice gave me so many... The Laksa tasted horrible...very oily, no cockles...etc... I still love QI JI laksa and spring roll the best... haha

How I wish that there is a new branch for QI JI... haha

Then stop I went to a cafe, where last time I sent my Godma that cafe... It was so much better... I seated and went to order a Ice Lemon Tea and Cookies... and It's cost me $12.80... I hate one thing about that Cafe was they don't accept NETS... So i went to draw out money...

And I enjoy my Soft my cute cookies...Cookies is Loved!!x)

The air - conditional getting much colder and colder... So I went to buy another cup of Hot Coco... Nice... I like the milk bubbles... hehe

So around 4.30pm... I went to this shop @ Changi airport... and browsed from Newspaper... haha... Then I came across the card section I read it... And I almost cried... haha... Cos the way they described is like so touching and meaningful... while reading of cos i thought of him... So I decided to buy the card and keep haha... that's very dumb... but okok lah... I love to shop @ the airport where we doesn't have to pay the stupid GST.... haha...

So ya... Then I went to the Viewing Mall... I thought stuff about last time I used to went there standing there and listened to what he talked and etc... Haha...

About 5pm... I went to Terminal 3, as usual lah.... Jln here and there.... And hoping to find a Birthday Present for my friend... I seriously like the accessories over there @ CHOMEL... The Earrings, Brooches....& etc... so nice... hehe

After that... went up the Viewing Mall where there were branches & etc... to kill time...

When going down I saw a White colour top lady... And haha... I saw Kelly... yap had a short Hello and chatted then separated... Then I went to down to the escalator... After that took Bus 24 to AMK Hub... And I bought some groceries back... to prepare to try to stay @ hm study... hehe

Then took bus 133 home haha...

I felt sometimes you don't really need a friend to accompany you do things like shopping n etc... Cos sometime to need to spend time alone @ somewhere to reflect about things... n etc... haha ya...

But I didn't say we no need a friend la...

Some quote by me::

"Every time when the clock stride 12 midnight, a new day, new beginning, a new start and a new experience".

"Cherish ppl ard you whether u like him/her or not... cos u nvr know when the person will appear".

So I wanna apologise to everyone out there whether you like or not....

"I LOVE YOU"

Do you have any???

The card that I bought... for fun!!

My favorite**>

PS: paruisloved!!x)

2009-03-02T04:58:00.000-08:00

MY HEART IS FEELING EMPTY, LONELY, SAD & LOST!!!

Hi everyone!!! So far my studies still ok!! But need to put in more extra hardwork... Ya today I got my results exclude FINAL term...

Results:

Incourse : B

Common Test: C

Project: B

So (common test+project)

I got a "B".

So must study real hard to pull up my marks... Insyallah..

Haiz... Now I'm feeling so empty, sad&lost...

I think it's becos he is going to Vietnam tml for excursion with his schoolmates n teachers...

Because whenever he's goin to somewhere out of Singapore... I'll always think that his migrating... Then i will be very sad and tears starting flow from my eyes...haiz

I don't know what to do... I have the urge to go and just see him from far and then i'll go off... haiz

Although I know that he'll be back on Friday but I dont what time... I'm sure a silly girl!!

but what to do... I'm making things difficult for myself but i jus couldn't help it!!

But I think i have more important things to do!! I will just pray for him. Hope that He will enjoy n save trip!!

Next::

I received a very shocking news!!!

I heard from my Elder Sister that one of my junior committed suicide... And he was my Junior back in Choir days... Although I didn't talk to him much but I knew him... Now he's passed away...

"Life is unpredictable n fragile"

"We mustn't take our life for granted"

"In every problems/ obstacles there will be a answer, reasons for you to find out!!"

Because Allah knows our desires, intentions, movements, our thinking and etc...

Life are indeed beautiful if we know how to do find and look for it...

I found this in a website called "AlifMusic"...

Where you will must wonderful Muslims Bro n Sis...

Here are some pics:

PS: "Cherish every hour, every minutes and every second while we can before it's too late."

2009-02-24T05:06:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!;D

Monica - Angel of Mine

When I first saw you I already knew

There was something inside of you

Something I thought that I would never find

Angel of Mine

I look at you looking at me

Now I know why they say the best things are free

Gonna love you boy you are so fine

Angel of Mine

How you changed my world you'll never know

I'm here for now, you helped me grow

Chorus :You came into my life sent from above

When I lost the hope you show me love

I'm checkin for you boy your right on time

Angel of Mine

Nothing means more to me then what we share

No one in this world can ever compare

Last night the way you moved is still on my mind

Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know

Deep inside I need to show

[Chorus]
I never knew I could feel each moment

As if they were new

Every breath that I take

The love that we make

I only share it with you

You, You, You, You
[Repeat *]

[Chorus]
How you changed my world you'll never know

I'm here for now you helped me grow

I look at you looking at meNow I know why they say the best things are free

Checkin' for you boy your right on time

Angel of Mine

2009-02-24T04:03:00.000-08:00

Hey Everyone!!!

I'm here!!! haha... Exams only left one week plus... I'm still suck @ unit 1... haiz...

Anyway I am so happy n enjoyed on last Saturday... wahaha...

And yesterday was a annoying and manpus night... my grandma forced to eat her food sia... Bcos yesterday she came in to the room and asked me...

My grandma: I cooked this food. Inside got egg, potato n meat

Me: huh? what meat??

My grandma: what mean?? I wouldn't anyhow put meat

Me: i dun one eat

My grandma: eat la, i cooked already!! you try

Me: i dun one (I actually wanted to ask her out... but she insist)

Then i no choose see her face like very sad... I pray n hope that God will forgive me!!

Then i put inside and pretend to chew... Oh my god I feel so disgusted!!! After that she still ask me to eat with rice sia... luckily i said i dun want!!

Then when the door was close, I hurried up grab tissues and throw out the food!! OMG!!!

Then when I was on my phone with Hazirah... My nenek suddenly came in.

And said:

My grandma: U bettter dont follow the Malays eat mutton and beef huh? "We" pray goddess want cannot eat...

Me: ya, i dont...(I just pretend lah)

My grandma: u know good...

Then I was like oh god... continued chatting n rinsed my mouth n of cos DOA lah... That's the most disgusting things man... Imagine... the stupid oil all over your, the meat(pork)... if u used the pot to cook other that is Halal... still nvm... But now she used the pot that is haram for me...eeewww

Then I didn't talked to my nenek today... She came in wow, still playing com ah... I ignore her... I know lah i'm bad... But If i think it another way, maybe it was a test from God(SWT)... so ya probably it is a test... But no matter what hope God (SWT) will forgive me... Insyallah...

Actually intended and the purpose for me to stop eating that Haram pork... So that I could know... But she spoilt but It's not all her fault la... But even if she give me or not I will still not eat la!!!

ya!!! That's all for today!!

Good Luck everyone for the upcoming exam and
Dayah good luck you can do it!! Cheer up!! =)

I always believe that in RELATIONSHIP the following are very important:

1st: COMMUNICATION - communications are impt, if not communication couples won't able to know each other better... After communicate with each other and u know the person well and will process to trust

2nd: TRUST - Trust are very impt no trust there will be no love.... When you trust one another the love with each other will increase...

Last but not least

LOVE - Love is a very simple thing... But humans make it complicated and let themselves miserable... that's y we saw lots of gays n lesbians... but no offend ya!!!

"LOVE is everywhere.... Love yourself first them learn to love others...".

Ok!!! Everyone deserve to find love but DON'T anyhow make love... haha so rythms...
I'm a genius!!! haha

And once you love that person don't things that make him or her hurt...

ps: ILOVEYOU!!

2009-02-18T04:38:00.000-08:00

Hi...

I apologised for not updating my blog... Sorry... Erm what should i blog....

Happened alot of things... But I guess this just the begining of LIFE and will still contiune will lots of ups & downs... so i'll preserve till the day i leave this beautiful world...

Exam are approaching... but i not yet study... hehe... I'm so naughty... And Arab Class going to end very soon!! Just three more weeks to go... I don't know whether to contiune the Intermediate Class or not... sigh... But good news is I'm going for Solat tutorial 2 @ Darul Arqam... Haha I can't wait to learn more recitations..=D

I thought about things that are making myself miserable... And I told my Godma and Dayah abt it... They both agreed that if loving someone is making u sad or miserable... I should let him go...
After I told Dayah about it n also while browsing through his pics i suddenly fleshed back the happy moments with him, and tears rushing through from my eyes and thought about what she said... So finally a decision was made to let him go... Eventhough it is the difficult thing to do, but I will try... And I think I'm still young... My sister said he is just a boy... cos she accidently saw my conservsation with my Godma... ya...

Cos I have no idea at all whether he knew or not... But to let him not feel weird n odd with we all go out ya... I decided... to let him go

All right, let's change subject... I had lots of fun last Sunday... I went for a panic @ Changi Beach together with Hazirah's Madrasah friend... Cos I promised her house to help her to cook... haha... fun!!

I fried most of the Chicken, Chicken franks, potong tomato, gralic n many more... very very fun... I made new friends2... everything was fantistic.... (=
haha... ya and I went to the "Gaza Donation Drive" on Sunday 8 February 09'. Met Hazirah @ Bukit Gombak.... n collected my tin and briefing... n off we go...
It was so hot that day but it's worth it... And guess how much we raised all together...$27,882.95... wow Alhumdulilllah... We had met the target.... hehe

Ok I'll stop bye...

PS: Letting go the one you love is the hardest thing, but i'll try...

2009-01-20T16:49:00.000-08:00

Hello

Sorry abt i didn't blog for a long time again!! Forgive me!! Maafkan saya!! hehe....

Yesterday Shab, Prema, Irzah and I went to Yishun to fix our hair... haha

Me... I paid $10 for the both cutting and reborning of my fringe... But the person didn't cut probably...

After that Irzah and I went to Mac(Yishun) and lepak hehe... After that on our way to Tampines Library... Cos I wanted to borrow some books about Islam and Arabic Language.. so ya... And a Big THANKS to LOUISE... for lend me your card... After that I went PS to meet my sisters... They were shopping for CNY clothes... hehe... And they bought a 3/4 quarter of top now i have more clothes....

But I seriously need to buy a pair of Black shoe for School...

Haiz... I have to bark up on my BCM and POM... Especially BCM, cos i wasn't here last last week.. Due to the Grease Musical... opps... As well as my Arabic Language...

Arabic Language are getting more and more interesting man haha.. Now i somehow know how to read a bit.. But there are room for improvement!!! And also big THANK YOU to this Faruk Abu-Chacua: Arabic An Essential Grammer book...

If only i can have this book... haiz... nevermind i'll give and buy it online!! If there's someone buy that book for me... I'll probably faint and love that person...Haha... Never Mind I'll save... Wait for me!!!=D

I'm happy that President Obama became the President of America... Hopefully he will do something about the people in Palestine and save the Innocent people there... Insyallah

ok I'll try to blog asap!!!=)

Cheers!!=D

2008-12-05T04:33:00.000-08:00

Hello, I know that it has been a month plus since I lasted blog!! Sorry and pls don't kill me!!=) Ok!! This one month plus, it was really fun, interesting and exciting...

I met new friends and understanding more about my old friends or just met friends....

I met Irzah's friend her name was "Hazirah". She was a really very fun-loving, the way she laugh was also very funny and i abled to click with her for just a few second... haha... I love her2...hehe.. she currently not studying but she go Madrasah every Wednesday... Yup... And she is also one religious lady... I like hehe... yuppie

Then I went to High Tea and In-Laws talk with my friend (one guy and one girl). I met my guy friend @ Ang Mo Kio first then we make our way there. And met my girl friend @ Darul Arqam.

The talk was good and i learnt alot of thing2 and also was the food ok la!! People there of course nice... then the whole talk my guy friend said he started to like Darul Arqam... so good for him and i'm happy for him... And I was shocked bcos my girl friend told me that her dad was one of the founder and ex-director of Darul Arqam... haha cos i didn't know... yup... erm... the after that we met this guy he came all the way from America to Singapore to come and learn about Islam... It was really Alhumdulillah...

But he attended the wrong class and room.. haha... And my guy friend and I both worn white that day... the Ustaz and the American guy thought that we are together or going to get married haha.. but nope we are just friend...=) all right then we were on our way back to AMK.. Me: I went to wash photo for my Godmother as her Birthday Present and He: of cos went home and buy groceries to cook Spaghetti. So accompanied him went to FairPrice express to buy groceries cos his specs spoilt... haha... yuppie then we separate our ways...

Next was I attended Solat class at Darul Arqam... It was great I know how to do the full solat. And I able to memories the Al-Fatiha within two weeks or less then the Tashahuh I remembered the half of the Tashahud but still can be improve... I met new friends and they were nice... It was really amazing of Allah that he could bring the Muslim and non-Muslim together to study about Islam is really amazing... And next year I'll continue with Solat Tutorial 2 and I'm going to my Ustaz, Islamic centre somewhere near Kembangan to study Arab Language... hee so far i only know one alphabet which is the one stroke "Alif".

Yup... There were alot of things happened in the a month plus... so i skipped to interesting part was when i lost my Ez-line card....

Ok!! This incident just happened last week!! I was in school i used my ez-link to tap attendance after ETP lesson, I wanted to tap out but i couldn't find. I was sleepy and clam i took out all my stuff but nothing... Louise, Shermaine and Sheela accompanied me to go up and find my EZ-link card... I searched classroom by classrooms of where my class were for my lessons but i still couldn't find... I was sad and angry... So the day before i found my card...

I prayed to Allah that ''hope that I can find my card and also the passion that i wanted to do". The next day.. I'm getting ready to go school but still i'm late... Wala... Then I opened the classroom door and find a place to sit.. My POM teacher gave me my assignment and handed me my EZ-link card... OMG i was so shocked and Alhumdulillah i found my card... hehe... Second one was on last Sunday.. Hazirah called me whether i wanna joined in the discussion of the carnival that they would be having next year... Insyallah... And wow my prayers has been answered twice...

And wahaha... Holiday is approaching... And I need to find job to earn back those rubbish stuff i spent in the past... And also Chinese New Year and Hari Raya Haji... But i can't celebrate that...nvm... And also more homework and project to finish... Alamak... ok!!

I will try my best to blog OK!! And don't kill me!!! haha

2008-10-24T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hey!!

Everyone!! Hehe... Sorry long time never blog...wakaka... Last month and this month really happened alot of things.... So I don't know where to start!!! erm...maybe i'll jus write things that happened recently....

18 October 2008

Irzah and I decided to go Bugis, because she wanted to buy her bag pack!! So I followed her!! Then she said that she's going to bring along a friend that is Hazirah!! haha!! It's a pleasure meeting her!!

Then after Irzah bought her bag, we went makan but i can't eat bcos i'm fasting(pay back) so while they ate i read and wait for time for me to break fast... then started chatted... Hazirah was so funny and Irzah too!!

Then ding dong!! It's my time to makan!! after jalan awhile at pasa malam then we decided to take Neo-Print!!!

So we chose the machine to take our kawaii muku... haha

Something embrassed thing happened to me!! Oh my God!!

Because while posting, I wanted to change direction to post, so i went up the stair, then I was adjusting myself, then suddenly i fell off the chair. We were like laughing non-stop sia and I couldn't carried myself up cos it's too funny so ya the non-print camera shot then moment when i couldn't pick myself up goodness!! ok after we jalan awhile at Bugis. Then we balik kampung... It was the funniest day ever...

19 October 2008

The next day my secondary school classmate and I went Jln Raye, I was fun and i am so full...

first I went yanti's house to change my Baju then we began our raye day but we went Potong Pasir to wait for Fauiz... He chamged really very long sia!! Like a girl sigh!! Yanti and I waited for him don't know like what... ok so finally we could go but the saddest thing was: It's raining heavily sigh!! ok then we made our to Boon Keng Mrt and waited yati and the rest to come!! Aminah really very lambat (slow& late)la!! ok!! ok i shall not say so much abt this... everything was great and wonderful!! I loved it!! Look forward to next yr jln raye!! haha

23 October 2008

Ok!! this day was my most embrassed..... and tired day ever.. During the last class of BCM(Business Communication)... I wanted to showed my lecturer my project slides.. so i rasied up my hand and called him... few minutes later...

Finally he came!!!

then i showed him my slides

Mr Hari: what is experience how the fish bite"?

Me: then what not bite.

Mr Hari: Not bite but nibbles.

then I was thinking how to spell "nibbles".

Bcos at that moment I super tired and no strength to think

so I think and type

Guess what I typed??

Instead of "nibbles".

I typed "nipples"

OMG

I still didn't noticed you know!!

When Ana said huh "nipples"

I double checked again!!

My goodness!!

Then everyone laugh la mad sia!! Including me2 haha!!

Sigh!!

I don't know why, ever since i enter Higher Nitec. There will be alot funny things come and go!!

Ya Allah!! ok!!

I'm so.........into socoer now!! and other sport!!! Don't why!!!

And die our group oral presentation has been push forward to 31 oct instead of 3 nov!!

I haven't get ready yet lo!!!

Ok!! I'll try to blog soon!! HAHA

Peace be upon to everyone!!

Till then BYE!!!

2008-10-02T03:24:00.000-07:00

Hey!!! It's really been a very long time since i blog!! Sorry to keep you guys waiting hee!!!

And Selamat Hari Raya to all muslim friends...hehe!!!

sigh...

My results not so good only got 2.3.

AFD (C)

OFA (B)

BFD (C)

So disappointed in my BFD!! Thought i will get A!!!

Ok!! It's really very fun, interesting and i learnt alot of things @ Darul Arqam!!

And my Birthday is coming!!

hehe!! (8 more days)

I don't really want any big surprises

but i jus hope and wish:

That my family n some friends of mine will understand

what I'm doing was right and good!!

I hope that i can study very hard and go Poly!!
Hope during this 3 - 4 years times, i can learn and understand before I convert!!
I hope my family and friends will stay healthy, happy and I love them always!!
I hope God will guide me to the Straight Path... Insyallah...

Thank You my sisters to understand and supportive with my decision and

friends who support me too!!!

HEHE!! I Blessed with kind n supportive people!!

Alhumdulillah!!

Ok!! I'll blog soon!!

Let's enjoy our Holiday!!

Before new school term starts!!

I will never give up!!!

2008-08-19T09:57:00.001-07:00

Hey!!!

It's quite sometimes since I last updated!! Hehe!! Sorry guys!! I'll start with my long story!!!

16 August 2008

I woke up at 11 plus, I was busying doing my friends Birthday Card!! And I almost forgot to get ready for the concert @ DBS Auditorium!! haha!! Then I hurried myself to get things done as fast as I could!! Then I packed everything and went out!! I was late about 5 - 10 minutes hehe!! Ok then I met Louise, Wan Juan and the rest @ Tanjong Pagar MRT station!! ok!! Then we walked to the Theater!! They were friendly and fun!! Then we took some photos with the "America Hero". They were funny, good and cute!! haha!! Wan Juan asked us "What is the THEME for today's concert?" Then I managed to guess correctly hehe!!! It's SUPERHEROS!!! haha!! I'm so observant!! haha!! I LOVE Robin!! He's cute haha!! And the rest too!!=) The concert was great!! Ok!! After the concert, we went took photos with them!! so cool!! I LOVE the song "Superhero Girl" and many more!!

Then we decided to eat at Amoy Food Court!! The Food Court were like empty!! Only a few stores were open!! Then some of us ate rice and some ate noodles!! While we we eating, we decided to talk about lame jokes!! haha!! It was really very lame lo!! But still ok la!! Then we still contiuned all the way when we reached the MRT!! haha!! Then one after another alighted at different station!! Then it's time to say Goodbye!! I missed them!! hehe!! Then actually I susposed to meet Shirley @ AMK, but she couldn't make it!! so sad!! Then I asked Li Yue to come out and meet me lor!!! I met her @ Bugis, Then I waited her for about 10 - 20 minutes and we decided to sit at this doughnut shop I can't remember la!! ya!! Then we chatted and took pictures!! We so long never meet up le!! Yeah!! Finally can see her!!

We talked about the recent stuff had happened and our past and etc...

Then suddenly my friend messaged, asked to meet at 9pm instead!! Then ok lo!! When I saw the time, it's going to be 9pm!! Then We made our way to Arab Street to meet my friend!! When we reached, he wasn't there!! Then i msged him, he's still inside!! then we decided to sit at the bench and took pictures again!! haha!!

Then we went into Golden Mile Shopping centre for toilet!! It was so quiet, we thought that there wasn't any people. But there were people!! Then we walked and came out!! Then he called and asked where are you in Chinese so cute!! Then I said I'm in front of the Mosque and are crossing the traffic light!! Then we walked wrongly and U-turn to walked at the alley!! Then I saw him with few of my NDP mates!! Then took photo again!! Then we went seperate ways!! Cause he wanted to go bookshop and looked for books!!! ok!! then Li Yue and I went Bugis cause she wanted to buy dounut for her niece!! Then she bought sassage and I bought potato!! Then we sat and chatted!! And I started to be emo!! haha!! Then ya!! We walked and seperated our way!!

I went home getting more and more emo, I also don't nod for what!! Maybe nod but not very convient to write here!!! hehe!! Ya, then went to bedroom to watch tv!!

Then my sister suddenly asked me this question that somehow shocked me!! she said that "I'm very silly!!" then I asked why? she replied "U should already know that U and him are impossible, why you still wanna gave him the jacket!!" Then I never said a thing!! Then I told myself!! I already gave him le what!! I only treated him as friend ma!! Then I when to bath and later online and chatted with him!! Then about 4 plus in the morning and sleep!!

Then actually I thought of waking up at 12.34pm , but i too lazy and tired to wake up then sleep back but suddenly i had flashback about him!! Then my heart and my feeling suddenly tuned so sour that i can't control it!! Then slowly I sleep back!! And woke up @ 2.45pm, then when i woke up!! My whole body, my feelings are so down that I can cry anytime!! Then I never eat my lunch!!

Then I decided to spend my sunday afternoon and studied my BFD. Then my sister played those sad songs, and I began to think of him and cried!! My tears flowing out continuously, stop for few mins and cry again!! sigh!!

Everytime I thought of him, it is just so sour to feel!! Then feeling of "you liked this person alot, but because of some reasons, you have to hold back your feelings for that person!! Is like so pain inside!!! Sigh!! Then I had no mood to study, instead I decided to use wires and do name!! As I was doing!! The very name came across my mind was his!!! Then I msged a few of my NDP mates and asked them wat colour they like!! haha!!

With my creativity, I managed to do four wired name in about 30 mins!! haha!!
ya!! Then all my story ended!!

Then I emo about 3 - 4 days!! I jus thought of why must we hold back the feelings that we like for this person!! As long as you are happy!! That's it!! Ya!! I also told my mum and another sister of my they said the same thing!! Why I so stupid?? The answer was Because my mum is stupid, so she gave birth to a stupid child like me!! haha!!!

ok!! I'll blog soon!!

2008-08-10T13:17:00.000-07:00

Hello!!

I'm back!!! Firstly, Happy 43th Birthday to Singapore!!!
"This is Home, truly where I know I must be, Where My Dreams wait for me where the rivers always flow....."

HAHA!! I'm so gonna miss NDP and my cluster mates and also all my new friends!!! I was awesome man!!! Really had lots of fun!! Before I joined NDP, I didn't really like to communicate with people that I don't know!! But after that I am more daring to talk to new people!! Thanks man everyone, I really enjoyed myself!! I missed single one of you!!! Haha!! Never mind we'll still seeing each other on the 23rd and also next year NDP 09'!! Yea man!!! I took a number of photos but not really everyone in my cluster la!! But I will take on the 23rd cos we are this Tea Appreacition Tea + Party!! So excited!! I just can't wait!!!

But the saddest thing was I shout until no VOICE!!! I WANT MY VOICE BACK!!!

Photos I will upload on Friendster!! If your wanna see ok!!! ok!! And I just got my pay!! So surprised!!!

ok!! I'll blog again soon!!

2008-08-08T08:24:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!

It has been quite long since I blog!! Ya, I just finished my BFD and AFD test!!! And this coming Friday will be my AFD CA2!! Oh no!! Must revise and practice my accounting man!! Ya and today in school, we had National Day Celebration!! The celebration was ok la!! Of all the celebration, I most enjoyed was the drama acted by: Singapore Science Centre people!! It taught us to care, share and love around our neighbour!! Yup!! And today there were group of Vocal Club people sang some Singapore songs!! I felt that they somehow off tune and not harmonies at all!! haha!! Although everyone are not prefect but It's a fact!! Yup after the Celebration, we decided to go Tampines and eat!! We were deciding where to eat!! But added up we separate!! all right!!!

Ok!! Tomorrow will be actual National Day!! And also the last day!!! T_T But there's always next years!! Haha!! We have lots of things to do tomorrow and after our Parade, we'll be eating supper!! I'm so gonna grow fat!! But ya Once In a Lifetime!!! I will miss everyone, everything and everybody!! Hehe!!

I started to have a little bit of cough!! I don't want la!!

Then today at work, I had ZERO sales=(!! haha!! Yup!! But over all I started to have feelings for my colleagues and everything around there!! And my one strict but nice supervisor and one funny, nice and serious when come to work!! I LOVE EVERYONE!!! THANKS GOD FOR KNOWING EVERYONE!! We took some pictures today @ my work place!!

Time passed REALLY very fast!!! I started to think about my Secondary friend Heryanti and Shirley Ong Swee Li!! HAha!! We must meet up soon ok!!!

Last but not least HAPPY 43rd BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE & EVERYONE!!!=D!!!

LOVE & MISSES

2008-08-05T00:14:00.000-07:00

Hi hi!!!

It has been quite long since i blog!! Sorry, cos lazy and don't nod what to type... Sigh this few days had been busy because of Role Play but now just finished!! Yeah one test are over, left few more to go!!! Today's role play was ok la!! Although I did forget some lines but I just like that blabbed out!! haha!!

I chatted with my friend last Sunday, we were like "so-called" compare the differences between Islam and Christian!!

He asked me questions and I asked him back!! Then I felt that these two Reglion were really similar man!! But the only the different thing were, Islam don't believed that God have son. But they do have the similar person called Is'(pudh) I'm not very sure sorry if it is wrong spelling ok!!

Ya Is'(pudh) is like similar to Christian called Jesus Christ!! Yup!! Then I asked him this question. I asked him: "Do you believed in there is only ONE God in this world, then after that they started to break into different other reglions?"

He said "Ya". And many more la!! But most of the time I was the one to chat and bcos of that he couldn't really watched his TV!! hehe Sorry!! I felt then he was a very understanding person!! He's also a very well-read person, who know about his Reglion and very devoted!! Cos nowadays, quite a number of people don't really know or read their own Reglion's book!! And as the Technology are getting more and more efficient, people dense to be lazy and rely more no technology!!

After we chatted about 4.30 in the morning then we said Good Night to each other!!

After that come to think about it, is quite sad! In the first place there were no such things as Jewish, Christina, Buddhist or Islam!! There's only one God like why must people said that your reglion say or my reglion say!! After all there is only God isn't!! I mean no offence. This was just my opinions. But it's jus so sad!! Then generations after another, Man now getting more and more selfish!! sigh!! Even if we the Earth floaded the whole City, we also deserve it!! So those people who doesn't know how to swim!! It's time to start now!! haha!!

E.g. A different reglion like a another reglion person. Just because of the they can't be together is just so sad!! I wonder If one day, if you like a guy/girl but he or she is from a different Reglion, What will you do!!

I think even if I don't have reglion, I still will believed in what I believe the right and the wrong!!

Cause I read a book, there was one sentence said "Reglions are man-made" in another word it's synthetic... I don't know!! Recently I thought alot of things!!

People don't get angry or what!! It was just my Point-of-View ok!!

Yup!! And next week will be the last day of the NDP. sigh!! so sad!! But I was seeing soon after the NDP!! And there's always next year!!

It's better to Give then to Receive!! So true!!

Haha!! ok!! I'll blog real soon!!

2008-07-30T09:41:00.000-07:00

Hey!!

It's had been quite a long time since I blog!! haha!! I'm feeling a a little emo today!! Don't know why!! Maybe people who knew the reason and God knows!! It's really had been a tired week for me!! And soon I'll be going for my check up!! hehe!! Dont know what happened haha!! It was great and I got some photos!! That I took last Saturday!! I'll show your ok!!

Can you spot me?? hehe!!!

It was very fun and nice to gang with them!! haha!!

I know that I'm naggy, talkative and ask alots of question la!! Sorry!!

I really have no offences!! Sigh!!

Yesterday, this Lecturer called my handphone!! And asked me to meet @ the Stadium there and gather for the NDP motivator ah!! Cos they wanna give us allowances!! I was "WHAT" allowances!! I thought did this jus for interest and volunteer work!! I was quite shocked!!

The I told ok!! After I went back home to ask Syaiid about the paying thing!! He said only ITE got!! Later poly they all don't have already!! Which mean I can received cash or don't know what la!!

I'm tired!! And Thanks Mr Hari for postoned our BFD Role Play and GOD for EVERYTHING and your answer to me!! Thank you!! Father!!

And my dearest friend too!!

Ok!! I'll stop here and will blog real soon ok!!

2008-07-27T04:18:00.000-07:00

Hey!!

Yesterday was very fun but somehow a little bored but still ok la!! I woke up late yesterday so I hurried up myself and prepare!! Then I messaged Ainul and Sabil that I'll be late!! Then went out and took bus at the Little India there then changed to MRT headed to Harbour Front MRT. Walked as fast as I could. When I reached the level 3 I only saw a few people and saw Sabil there took food. Then I saw Ainul and Sabrila, I ran towards them haha!! Ok then we wandered around!! Then I told them I wanted to buy tabbits. Then we went to the Food Court and buy tabbits over there!! The Potato Chip quite ex la!! So ended up I bought to Two potato chip and a Pocky!! Went back and waited for them!! Then he finally came haha!! When I saw him I was a little sad don't know why!!

Slowly more and people came then we had head count then we went into Sentosa!! We took the Tram in, then we reached we had to walk quite a long way, It was tiring but fun!! Then finally we reached to spot where we were and sort us up in groups!! Cluster C with Cluster C they added 3-4 people in our group!! Then they appointed me as a Leader of the group for today I was like "huh" why me?? then my assistant Arief. Then ok lo!! Then we started our Treasure Hunt..

We solved the hint then had gaven us!! One by one we solved!! There's alot of things happened over there haha!! Then when the time about to up!! we ran back there!! And we are the second group to reach!! And the results are: haha, we WON!!! yeah!! so fun!! Then we played another game!! We have to form a number 43 because it's Singapore 43 years old this year!! And the mentor have to think of ideas to help us and we had to close our eyes!! yup!! Then finally we can EAT!!! so hungry!! It was very long winded story!! if you want to know ask me ok!! hehe!! ok!! I'll end here!!

And I'll blog soon!!

2008-07-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

Hello!! Everyone!! Time passed really very fast!! So fast it's already friday night!! And next week I have alot of exam OFA and I worse exam is the NAFA!! erm!! Why must they changed the running track??? I want the old running track!! The new are so troublesome and long distance!!! ok!!

So far this week was alright and I got my OFA result and I am really very shocked as well. Because I got A+!! Oh goodness and thanks Father too!!!=) I got photos from Louise. It was about we last Monday went to the Sungei Buloh Nature Park there and we took some photos!!

And tomorrow I have no training but I will be going to sentosa for CLUSTER outing with Cluster B & our cluster C!!

Hope it would fun!!! I will treasure every moment that we have!!!

2008-07-22T10:03:00.000-07:00

Hey!!

It's been a fulfilled week for me!! Last Saturday I had lots of fun with my cluster members!! And as well as stupid of me or should I said "greedy"???

Ok!! Last Monday, I woke up quite early because we were going to buy 11 tickets for "The Dark Night". Suhaili, Faiz, Prema, Eunice, Shermaine, Sheela, Shazana, Ana, Louise, Irzah and me!!
It was a great movie but I a little unsatisfied about the ending!! HAHA!! But overall was ok!!

Then after bought the tickets, We went for a One and Half hour of BFD lesson. Then suddenly when were released to go for our breaks, my study came so suddenly but I couldn't sigh!! ok!! then we went to buy some tabbits to bring to the bus and eat!! As we were having a Class Trip to Sungei Buloh. Ya!! then after buying all the tabbits, we sat down there at the Amphereite Theater. It was about telling us to smoke or to have sex at young age!!

Then when the MC asked a few questions Irzah, Shazana and me got the prize. It was a Luge Voucher! Ya we made our way to Sungei Buloh. It was fun and nice but the bad part was it was raining and dizzying.

So we took some pictures and managed to have 20 minutes walk so short. But it was really nice going there. Kept in touch with the Nature, the wind and etc.. Then when returned to the shelter I had a suddenly of singing Where I Belong and Home haha!! It was really fun!! Then as we were waiting for the rain turned down alittle we went to the Cafe. Ana and me bought a packet of fish food and sprinted around the food and I saw my favourite reptiles "The Terapines" haha!!

Then when we reached school, it was about 4.45pm then we reached to TM to catch our movie!! Lousie, Irzah and I went there. A few minutes later they arrvied and went to buy popcorns and nacohos and drinks!! Louise went back first!! Then we continued to watch and stay about 2 and 1/2 hours. And we seperated our way home!!

And today at worked I didn't know why I got 6 sales haha!! yeah!!

And the saddest thing was after two more actual show. NDP will be over and I will miss him and everyone at my cluster!! sigh!! But we are going to SENTOSA yeah!!

ok!! I'll blog soon bye!!

2008-07-17T06:48:00.000-07:00

Hey!!

Erm I not sure what to blog?? Maybe I'll talked about my magic box show!! Ok!! Last Tuesday, I went back home after school about 3plus. then I hurried up my to go take a break then had a bath!!! Then got to doll up after I watched TV for awhile!! While I walked around at home, my Grandma suddenly asked me this shocking question!! She asked "Why I wear so nice!! Is it going on date??". I was like "WHAT". No la then we laughed together!! WAHAHA!!

Ok then I left home at 6.45pm. Waited for bus to go there. Then when I reached Esplanade, then went up to the eslcalator to the Lobby. Then I saw Chloe haha!! Cos I was kinda for 10 mins!! Then when I first was my cluster member Diyana and one forgot his name!! I was like so happy!! And ran there and gave her a hug haha!! Ok!! Then we were waiting for others to come!! While Diyana and I chatted for awhile then I saw Shu Zhen too!! Haha Went to say hello!! After continue our chat!!!

Then when the time drew near to the show!! My members and I were waiting for some of them to come and we double checked our tickets!! Then two more people hadn't come yet so we waited for them!! Then I thought that one of my cluster friend not coming that day!! Then When I heard his name I was very happy!! =) ok!! We went up first then their tickets we gave it back two tickets to the in charge then we sat down in the Theatre!!

When the show started about 15 mins, this light suddenly became so bright that I couldn't opened my eyes!! Guess what his friend and him were here!! I was like so happy to see him!! haha!! dont why!!

Ok!! The show started!! The show was quite long, when it's time for interval is already about 9 plus in the evening!! Then we took a few photos!! Then contiuned the show!!

The ending part were more interesting then the first one ok!!

Here are picture at the Esplanesde:

I will blog soon!!

2008-07-12T09:26:00.000-07:00

Yoz!!!

I jus came back home one hour ago from NDP!! HAHA!! Today NDP was really FUN and I enjoyed it!! Although last week was sucks but at least this week was better. Yum!! Yum!! They gave us some sweets and jelly to give to the P5 students!! Oh my!! Some of were very hyper and some were quite rude by the way they talked!!! I felt like slapping them man!! haha!! JK!! Then I mingled around with some of the students and gave out sweet!! They were so hyper when o took out my sweet and jelly!! haha!! When we went back to our holding area!!

We were all so exhausted and they gave new water and gave ice cream and mango jelly from desert then our dinner was nice and got my favourite "Chicken DRUMSTICK". HAHA!! I'm like so happy and the sausages were somehow sour so I didn't finish that.... Amazing!! huh!! haha!! And Thank God that no body fell sick or fainted haha!! After dinner our mentor gave out the Star light, it was so big and nice!! If only the light have all the colours!! hah. Yesterday my very first day of work was great!! My trainer was nice!!

As well as my colleagues around me!! Then after the training, my supervisor asked me to sit next to one of my senior!! And when I started calling one customer after another. Then there was this person called Lee something can't remember! it's suppose to be a guy then auntie picked up the phone then after I talked for a few sentences, she started complaining about me, insulted me. And whatever bullshit she said. Then she was too angry at me. Never mind whatever!! But I think I’m at fault too I should had speak and explained properly. I will get the change!!

Hoho!! Yesterday I got back my Business Fundamental result! Guess what!! After I missed out a 8 marks questions and some mistake!! Haha I got an “A”. When I heard Mr Ghazli announced my results!! My reaction was like I opened my mouth and eyes wide and looked at Louise and Irzah!! And congratulations Louise you also got an “A”.

I must carry on working and maintain my Bfd grade!! Haha!!

And I have free ticket to go and watch Magic Box!!

And thank you God for everything!!

Ok I will blog soon!!

2008-07-06T05:46:00.000-07:00

Hey!! So fast holiday end already!!! I need more holiday and I'm still in a holiday mood lo!! Sigh!! I found a job le!! But haven't yet go for interview. I found the job in newspaper the i wrote it down on a piece of paper, It's called the "My Job List". Haha!! So Tuesday must go for interview at 2pm!! haha!!

Louise and Shirley object me going to work!! Because they afriad that my studies will flung!! I at first also don't want to work but whenever I asked for pocket money I will feel very useless and sad.. You know the feeling in your heart. It is so miserable!! And don't know what to do!! I know is normal to ask money from your parents or siblings but sometimes they will give you those faces. It's just make me sad and I can't take it!! Anyway thank you so much!! Love you two!!Haha

Yesterday NDP was all right la!! But still bored somehow cause i have nobody to talk too!! And I have two tickets plus another cause my friends family and friends busy so she gave it to me!! Ya and yesterday food sucks until people sick and one if them faint. I will shocked but there all right now!!

So sian tomorrow going to start school already!! And NAFA coming I don't running and somemore six round the stupid track T_T!!!

Haha!! ok I will share your some of my latest pictures taken by me:

Here enjoy!!

And tomorrow is Youth Day lo!! But we don't have holiday!! Where got like that one!! I want my Youth day holiday!!

2008-06-30T01:14:00.000-07:00

Hey!! It is the last week of holidays!! so short!! I want more holidays!! And I've finished doin my resume haha!! Have to check for errors then i'll send to them!! If they don't wanna hire me and i can do my resume haha so that next time start working i'm ready to give them my resume!!

Last week, It was a tried and pleasant day!! I went out with Chloe!! And last saturday I had NDP they gave out the costume the pant was awful but the top is all right!! At lunch they gave mushed potato, beans, chicken chop, and two pieces of fish nuggets.

I love it!! Nice

Then at dinner KFC!! Oh goodness!! Last last week of Saturday we KFC now also KFC!! Faint*

yup!! I took some pictures with my cluster member!! And our name called "Congo". Yeah!!

here are some pictures!!

It is quite dark la but still ok!!

yup!! And during the reheresal i almost going to faint!! Because I saw him Nathan Hartono!! so Cute and handsome!! drool!! He sang jazz version "Where I Belong". haha!!

"Where I belong where I keep my heart and soul

When dreams come true for us

Where we walk together hand in hand

Towards a further so bright!!!"

haha!! I shall enjoy myslef before the school reopens!! nightmare is approaching!!

So this week i have plans with Louise, Chloe and my NDP haha!!

And die i have to perform magic in front my audiences sigh!! And this Saturday will be our final magic lesson!!T_T

ok!! That's all for today!!

I love you all!!

Yesterday is a HISTORY, Tomorrow is a MYSTERY!!

2008-06-25T03:10:00.000-07:00

Hi!! It's the second week of holidays!! Soon school going to start!! And I don't know whether is it a good news or bad news!! The person email back to me and asked to send them my rusume first so that they can see what work i can do? But if i work it will be at Changi Airport there lei!! Is quite far la!! And if i'm goin to contiune working i think i will die there slowly!! haha!!

I had this thought flashes through quite sometimes in my mind!! Here it goes!!

We don't know what will happen tomorrow!! So what we can do now i to apprieate what we have and what we doing now!! Because we only live once! Why I said that because yesterday I was looking at my phone's calendar and thought! Can we even leave until that long 2079 wow! I calculating 2079 - 1990 = guess what?? By the time it reaches year 2079 I will be 89 years old!! So I think the earth will probably die out or the earth will become very polluted by that time and we will die like don't know where! I think by that time there isn't such thing as ghost, black magic or GOD!!! So we shouldn't regret the things we already did.

We should just let the history past and leave it as a memory. We must live on and move forward and face it in a positive way!! If we keep think back about the past and continue to mourn we won't learn our mistake!! Take the past as a lesson, reflex it and move on!! So live each of your with a smile and new beginings will be waiting for you!!

Ya!! I know it is very long and draggy!! But ya just think about it!! and if you have fail something in life!! Don't give up and try again ok!!

Oh ya haha!! yesterday I went out with FLSS. I was the first one to reach first!! haha because Shirley asked me to leave my house early and meet me!! But the thing was Orchard or Somerest are so near my house!! Then I reached Shirley and the rest hadn't reach yet!!

Ok!! after that we then came we went Cineleisure to buy tickets. We watched Kung Fu Panada!! Although the three of us watch it before!! But Louise hadn't not watch so ya!! watch again lo!!

After that!! we took some photos spent our time!! then we had lunch nice but I'm still hungry!! HAHA!!

After watching the movie we went around at Plaza Singapura!! Louise and Felicia went to buy something! then they decided to go LJS to sit down, eat and chat!!

Also Shirley waiting for her bf to had dinner in her bf house haha!! ok la!! they have a husband and wife face!! haha!!

Shirley don't forget to invite us!! And Louise and i help to you plan your wedding ok!! WAHAHA!!

ok I'll stop here!! I'll blog again soon!

SunShine vs NightMare!!

2008-06-23T04:17:00.000-07:00

Hi there!! haha It's holiday but left two more weeks included today!! My holiday had been splendid!! Now I'm looking for part-time job.. Cos no more money to spend and my card had been taken from my sister to keep cos i spent too much!! and I will also be shy to ask them for money!! so ya I'm searching and finding in newspaper!! Haha!! hope that i can work soon!! Erm

Saturday, NDP was wonderful!! I just simply love my cluster people!! They were jus so hyper and crazy haha!! I must try to be more like them!! And one of my mentor very nice!! He bought us drinks!! only our cluster haha!! Cluster C rocks!! hehe!!

Today I woke, prepared myself to go out and meet Chloe and held her collect her uniform cos she wanted to altar her uniform cos she bought male uniform haha!! ya!! Then I headed to take a bus to meet her at City Hall to pass her the uniform and also we were going out to find stupid agency for modaling and acting!!

Yap!! then after met her we headed our way to Tao Payoh MRT then took a bus and then we alighted to find the agency!!

We were like lost in the area of Blastier!! Holy crap!! then I decided to call the person!! That stupid lady!! Don't know to describe the building so irritating!! Kept asking me to ask people and is was a building!! I was thought about it and looked around at my surronding!! Where the hell is there a blue colour building!!! I'm stupid!! then we decided to walked through this HDB flat and asked a lady from china! She gave a I don't know look with gestures and pointed right!! All right we followed the way. then slowly we drew closer to the Blk 80, Blue colour stupid building!!!

And hoho, It's that irritating blue building!!! Then we searched for the enterance.. We walked almost around the building to search for one enterance!! The building itself are creepy and weird!! The we made our way up to the bloody Agency!! It was very messy their files are everywhere!! Then the lady called us to filled up the stupid form!! and we waited for interview!!

Then it's our turn!! The owner himself looked so weird and irritating!! eeewww!! And we had to pay the stupid agency $$!! Just go and die man!! So rude and irritating kept wanting us to pay $1000!! And he doesn't listen to what my friend he just cut through like that!! Oh bloody crap!!
After that we left the sickening building!! I swear to God that I will not step into the stupid building anymore!!! man!! So pissed off!! I hope that their business will break down!!! Then we actually to headed ourselves back to Toa Payoh MRT!! But we were lost!! So we went to take bus to Novena Square!! And then we decided to ask one of our friend to ask her for suggestions!!! Then I messaged her!!

She told that he was a fake agency!!! Luckily we never gave the liar our money!! Thanks god!!

And thank her!! God blesses us!! Thank God!!

HAha!!

Yup!! yup!! hehe!! I will rather to find a proper job then this stupid and fake thing!!!

Forget about it!!! Haha tomorrow I'm going out with my dear Shirley, louise, Felicia and myself cant wait to see Shirley!! Misses her!!

God bless!! Hope I can find a part time job sooner or later ok!!! hehe

Ok! See ya tml and my cluster people!! WAKAKA!!

Maybe I'm right, maybe I'm wrong!!!

2008-06-14T07:50:00.000-07:00

Today I went to the Platform for NDP. I woke up get ready and got out home at around 9.05am. I waited for the bus to go to Marina Square's MacDonald to meet up my clusters people... Of course I didn't eat my breakfast. Had a little chat with some of my friends quite bored but funny!! Bored course i have nothing to do and i don't understand Malay... Funny part was i could somehow catch their joke!!!=) We sat there like a stone!! And weather was damn bloody hot luckily i brought along my shawl but didn't make any different!! It's still HOT!!! Then our mentors gave us briefing about next week NDP. What to do?? Where to wait?? and etc....

Then we got to rehearse our dance step!! The music was quite fast and i couldn't catch the rhythm... My dance step like messed up. And my face was like so stress up!! Then one of my friend saw. And asked to chill!! Haha!!! Then my mentor wanted those who couldn't really familiar with the dance asked to have personal couching with one of my cluster member. Yap!! He very funny and patient!! He is a good teacher!! Thanks ya!! I managed to dance and I will practice hard!!!

Sigh!! Next week I must wake up around at 10.30am!! I must put reminder or somewhere scare if i forgot!! Next Saturday will be a long day all the way until 10 plus! dots..... faint....

Anyway today after had the NDP. I decided to go home so i walked to the Esplanade bus stop!! While waiting, there was there appearence looking not bad guy smile and appropriated me!!

Then I was a little nervous!! Then he asked me whether I'm from China, Malaysian or Korean!! Then i said I'm local and I'm Chinese!! Then he said introduced himself!! He's a Japaness and asked whether i know how to speak Japaness anot!! I replied yes but a little!! Then he shook my hand and said Konichiwa means Hello!! I replied back in Japaness la!!

Then he started to ask me whether i believed in Christianity anot!! I said "Ya". Then asked me What religion i am?? I said "free thinker". Then he doesn't know what that. I explain!! Then he started his long-winded stories about christian!! I mean not offence la!! But he asked to much question lo!! Like about 30 minutes!! Then he talked alot la!! i kept looking up for my bus and took my phone!!! But my bus haven't come yet!! Sigh then finally he finished talking!! And said "Bye and thanks for your time". Then i nodded my head!! OMG!!! sigh then after he left my bus finally came!!haha!

Never anything happened for a reason!! Ya!!

Last week will be quite a pack week for me!

And yeah My sister coming back tomorrow!! Wahaha!!

I will pray for her!!! To reach Singapore safely!!!

Smile*-*All right!! That's all i'll post soon again!!! ok!! Bye

Happy Holidays!!

2008-06-13T10:55:00.000-07:00

Hihi!!!

Hooray!! June holiday are around the corner. But don't know what to do lei during holidays!! Maybe will have plans ba? Yesterday, Hui(2nd sis) and I celebrated Mummy's Birthday!! haha!! cause yesterday jie asked me buy sliced cake for mum!! ok i went to buy the cake at Four Leaves, Tampines. Then at night abt 11.55pm i prepared to give my mum a susprises!! And the silliest thing was i didn't ask for candles!! so stupid!! But with my sister idea, instead of candle we put fireworks haha!! so creative!!! of course we got use alohcol wipes then poke in the cake!! HAha!! 12.03am haha!! Susprise susprise!! we light up the firework so nice but never took the photo for the lighting part!! then my sis went the room first we started singing Happy birthday song!!! then my mum was like so shocked!! And almost cried out haha!!! ok here are some photos!! hehe!!

WOw!! haha i went to edit!! WAHAHA

Yummy!! Classico Choco!!

Mum & I!!

Mum& Hui!!

Us!!

But my elder sis went for holiday!! But nvm when she come! Wahaha!! I missed you!! Lots!!

Okies!!! That all for today!! bye gtg!!

If not cant wake up for NDP!! Wahaha!!!

Happy Holidays

I think, I wonder!!!

2008-06-12T08:18:00.000-07:00

Hey my fellow friends!!! I been quite long since i blog!! haha!! Yea!! Holiday approaching soon!! I just finished my BFD exam today!! sigh the exam easy la, i stupid never do one qns on the FACTORS OF PRODUCTION!!! Cause i was too excited to draw the diagarm of economy and business that forgot do that qns sigh!! I shall say bye bye to my "A". sigh!! Never mind i shall try harder and not to be careless next time!! And I must calm down!! Don't why so hyper at BFD class when Mr Ghazli asked the qns sigh!! siao!!! erm ya i got my photos from Prema aready!! hehe so nice!! Those photos are the pictures we took at the BBQ!! Enjoy!!

Model of the day PART I!! What happened to Ana?

Model of the day PART II!!!

Model of the day PART III!!!

Model of the day PART IIII !!

Fun Shot I!!!

Fun Shot II!!!!

Twist I!! (Class AB Girls)

Twist II!! (Class AB Girls)

Class AB(2008) Rocks!!

Yup!!! For more pictures upload or what just tell and i will send it to you ok!!!

HaHa!! Now 13 June clock pass twelve!! Is MUM birthday!!! WAHAHA!!!

Happy Birthday Mum!!!=) Love ya!!!

all i will blog soon ok!!!!

Rock 'n' Roll

2008-06-08T08:29:00.000-07:00

hey!!

Yesterday, I went to the Bedok Camp and BBQ at Pasir Ris Park... it's a conbined classes with AA and my class AB. It was fun!!! we took lots of photos... WOW!!

I went Bedok Camp for my NDP haha!! It was raining so heavily yesterday!! my god!! after that i rushed down to meet Irzah at Bugis. Cause she said she wanna help he colleuge to buy watch!!! yap then when i reach bugis, we went Bugis and buy the yogurt drink, quite nice lo!!! tml i buy again!! haha!! Then we went to Bugis Village and bought watches!! And we jalan around at bugis village!!! Haha and i bought a belt!! hehe!!

Then we made our way to Pasir Ris and meet our friends... When we reached Pasir Ris station no one reached yet we went Popular and bought some stationeries. After we went back to the station and find them.

Then we go MacRonald and had our lunch... So funny sia in Mac... Prema wanted to charged her camera but there were three guy over there. then I went to ask whether they finished charging already or not!! then she managed to charged her camera..

Soon the air - condition are freezing us like hell... so Eunice and I went to buy a shawl haha!! they are having a pomotion 1 for $8 and 2 for $12.. so we two shawls 1 for her and 1 for me....

So we made our way to the Pasir Ris park... we walked there!! It was very nice to walk and talk to them... then they picked this way that looked so creepy!!! haah but it was alright la!!!

Then suddenly i saw sea... I'm so happy and excited haha!!!

but when we reached, they haven't start the BBQ yet!! so we went stroll around and took lots and lots of pictures!!! haha

Then I saw this uncle with his friends or family... I'm not so sure!! He called us to move away!! Then i was like blur blur!! Then Suhaili and the rest suddenly screamed then i also screamed i tot what sia?? gussed what?? It was a snake lying at the road!! wow then we slowly moved aside!!!A malay uncle save us all!! he took the snake to the lamp pole and turned circle the snake!!

Then we were discussed abt the snake whether is alive or dead!!! ya nvm!! As long as we were save!!!

Around 6 in the evening, the BBQ finally started!!! And we were all staved to death!! I didn't got to eat the satay lor!! cos busied taking picture!!! haha!!

We all left first at about 7 - 8 plus!! then we went Downtown east there and walked. and we went in macronald the drink $1 coke... Wow!! So refreshing!! then we continued and took pictures...

Then about 9.30pm, Shermine, Sheela and I have to go!! Ya that's end of the day!!

Next time let's go Escape Theme Park, Wild Wild Wet and bowling ok!! haha can't wait....

Next Saturday, i have to wake up @ 8am. Cause i'm meeting my cluster at Marina Square and go in to the platform together!! It will be the whole day!!! tired!! Iwanna take pictures with my cluster members. Didn't got the chance last week, Cause i left a little early!! haha

And Da Jie come back safely ok!!!

ok!! I gtg to go!! I'll blog soon and shares pictures ok!!

Good night!!

Fun, not Fun, FUN!!!

2008-06-06T05:03:00.000-07:00

Hey!!! haha!! It's almost been a week that I never blog!! Opps, sorry! hehe. Nowadays it was getting busier, cause my BFD CA1 coming real soon!!! I hope I can score well!! so i must study hard!! Today I have AFD re-test for the Cash Book. Sigh I think this re-test will be bad. At first when I first write the answer my feeling say it was correct lei then when i about want to finished i saw the stupid entr,y I wrote wrongly then i go and re-do. Sigh die!! But the think is my answers for the previous one i got the cash answer correct then i go change!! stupid sia!! sigh so i think when the test come back i'll die like nobody business. I must buck up!!! yup!!

All right!! Tml AA class and our class are combining a BBQ to build bonding with each other!! And I am going after my NDP!! But I have no idea what do after NDP cause it's end at 12pm and I'm meeting Prema and friend at 3.30pm. erm!!! Maybe I can go home watch Kids Central with my sister first then i come. But very toublesome to after here and there and the fare aren't cheap!! Maybe i go around jalan here and there haha to buy some stuffs and shop around!! hmmm... sounds great.. I'll again there

Wow!! I really liked the photo we took at TM lobby there so nice!! I'll some here ok!!

we actually got the inpirastion from from a church play called "Tunnel". So do suport us ok haha!! jk!! jk!!

This one also very nice we all posed the different way. I think now i looked at it I look like a puppet. HAHA!!

I like that!! This our end of shooting!! Wahaha..

for i will update at my Friendster...ok!!

Ok I gtg!! And will blog soon.. It is a long day tml!!!

So ciao!!!

Quiz!! Quiz!!

2008-05-28T05:16:00.000-07:00

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag some people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.
* * * * *

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
~ ask myself why and don't say anything and go!!

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
~ Study hard go Poly

~ GET GPA 3.8 - 4

~ Go up to the Singapore Flyer with the person that I like!! hehe

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
~ erm I want nice and unforgetable wedding! I think I will prefer the venue at a Garden or Beach

~ And must get married in a Chruch!!

*haha*

#4 Are you hungry?
~ not really just feel like eating!!

#5 What’s your ideal lover like?
~ He must not smoke, caring, tall abt(170), must make me laugh!! and many more

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
~ both lah! bt the feeling of being loved by sumone is better but if the person u love dont love u. Then too bad!!

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
~ haha i will wait for him!!

~ And I believe that if he is the one you been looking for! Then he will be!

#8 If the person you secretly like (if there isn't one, just imagine) is already attached, what would you do?
~ I cry for few days and then will let him go!!! And will be happy for him!!

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
~ nope but sometimes i will!! depending on the day itself & my mood. but when i'm friend, I feel happy and glad

#10 Is there anything that has made you happy these days?
~ hmm.. yeah!!

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
~ erm not so sure!! But I think i will be studying and work!!

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
~ my family=D
~ my friends**

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
~ Half half!!

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
~ i'll rather b single & rich. cos still young and can find better one.HAHA!!

#15 What’s the first thing you do every morning?
~ force myself to wake up, brush up, get change..etc

#16 Would you give all in a relationship?
~ erm no. i won't giv up my life and left my friends n family alone.

#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
~ the one care and treat me the best!

#18 Would you rather be friend with a geek who is a really nice guy or a super hawt dude but really isnt that nice to you(treats you badly as a friend, etc)?
~ Are you kidding!! A geek! geeks are smart and I quite like their culture but prefer korean haha!!
*wink*

#19 What are your friends usually like?
~ they are crazy & funny & nice too!!

#20 What type of friends do you dislike?
~ ok i hate ppl who is irrtating, backstabber, don't nod how to explain!!

The following pls contiune the quiz:

*Felicia*

*Christine*

*Chloe*

*Shirley*

Someone help me PLS!!!

2008-05-28T04:48:00.000-07:00

Wah lau, today AFD test suck like hell lo!! stupid crap!! I dont understand why Madam Siti gave do the format not like that lo! Then she today give us a totally different format of paper. So funny! Normally give us one need to calculate the cash at bank or one of the debtor or creditors money. But today totally no need to find sia!! And the money under the the debtors and creditor, she seperated into DR cash in bank CR cash at bank. I can really die lo! And when i looked at the qns, there are alot of question mark lo!! Sucks man!! How do you aspect us to find sia!! I confirm will fail for the Cash Book test!! faint***. And I still got to retest the double entry test!! This one I dont mind!! But cash book question, I in CA2 don't come out. If not i will!!! I mustn't give up!!! I will ask my new friend from Accounting to teach me!! I beg you!! hehe.

Today at BFD class, I think I am hyper and crazy!! Don't why suddenly so hyper!! sigh. Now I becoming to like BFD more!! HAHA.. It is a good start!! I must get A!!!

Today I still never talked to him... But I asked the pinky whether want to eat chocolate anot haha!!

Whatever ok!! I will stop here!!

Just Fine!!

2008-05-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

Yeah!! I'm back!!! I'm so happy!! I finally update my blog background!!Haha!! Thanks to Louise!!

Today I thought he wasn't coming for class. But when everyone was doing AFD test, then he came. After he reached, he hurried he settle doing. Then suddenly he went out! I think he went to Gent i think! Maybe he still hasn't recover his illness!!

Anyway Today's test for both AFD & OFA are all right!! At OFA test i was about to my documents out. Then suddenly i heard the irritating person " said print again ah!!". I was like the... Is it your problem?? Just shut up and do your work la! busybody!!

Well it is quite a pleasant day today. But It's hot!! Oh gosh!!

And tomorrow I must go school for NDP to learn magic!! hAHa so excited!!

Ok I'll stop here!!

Mix & Match

2008-05-22T09:03:00.000-07:00

Erm I don't know what to blog!! But just wanna blog for the sake of my fellow peers!! Yup I'm fine!! And today he finally came back to school!! Oh God Bless!! Maybe i think because he was really very ill last week!! So Thank God!! Haha and I didn't talk to him as usual like the first day of school! haha!! Maybe I'm still not ready! So... sorry!!

Sigh the OFA project kept on pushed the date here and there. But still we have to present it to Mr Quek at our computer where sat in the com lab. Oh no!! I haven't finish and i couldn't cos maximum 12 slides.. HOW TO SQUEEZE?

Sigh I will be alone starting from tomorrow my sister going hike with her stupid student!! haha! Hope my sister and the rest will be back save and sound!! I Love You!! Jie!!

And Here for my fellow peers!! Thank you!! For reading my blog and gave me advises! I know your are having a hard time reading it! So here my font size!!

I'll blog again soon!!

Ok Take Care everyone!! Love YA!!

That how love is all about!!!!

2008-05-20T02:08:00.000-07:00

I think I've been a little hushed on him while messaged him!!! I know he is a little greedy two like to people. But maybe he really had feelings towards them. During his first day of work?! Although at times, It's really hurt to think back!! But I guess it time to let him go!! Cause maybe he is not one...

Even if like what my have friend said "I still have two years to impress him". Even if I manage to impress him after two years, I will still not accept it. Cause I've already have a scar there. But it will be impossible for him to like me!! So I will just let him go and hope then the person that he like will accept him and i will be glad and happy for him!! That's sound horribly silly and stupid but ya i still have to be friend with him for less than two year so i hope that he will forget everything and come back to school soon!! Time after time we will slowly forget about all the unpleasant memories and be friends!!!

I will pretend nothing had happened and contiune my life!!! I remembered i told my silbings and cried on their arms and they said i cried until very ugly haha i dont wanna konw haha!!! Whenever things had happened jus had to let it go. And I must learn from my mistake not to do it again!!! ok ok I blog soon!! Oh no Accounts getting tougher and tougher!! I hope i can cope with it! God Bless ME!!

My bad memories soon will faded. Bit by bit as the time pass!!! And new Journey and experience will begin!!! That's how I will grow up!!! I believe in it!!!

My Heart Shattered into Pieces!!

2008-05-17T04:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a very unlucky and bad day for me!!! Because received a very shocking and heart breaking messages from him!!!
Before he replied back to me! I actually messaged him good night message before he sleep, Cause he was working! So i wanna sent messages to cheer him up!! So yesterday I sent him!! Then about 11.37pm, I was about to close my eyes for a moment. Then suddenly he replied me and thanked me for messaging him and he said I'm trying to express something to him. Of course wouldn't him first so i replied him maybe haha jus wanna message to a friend like you!!

Then he told me that he had two people worked with him in his workplace that are impt to him!! Immediately I was awoken and looked properly. I thought that i am dreaming! But "NO" I wasn't. I was shocked and my heart broke into million of pieces when i saw the messages. At the moment i don't what to do so i called Prema for help she didn't picked up then i called Irazh and told her. After that i try to replied him!!

Of course i'm sad and cried. when I want to cry but like my heart are holding me back and my chest felt a sudden of hot air heating very hard! I was shevering!!

But I thought and I thought he really awesome cause even one of them rejected him he still continued to be their guardian angel and continued protect them.

Although my heart had shattered into pieces, I still wanna like him and know him more!!! I know I'm stupid and silly, but still i wanna talk to him more and I hope to be his guardian angel!!!

And Thank You Prema and Irazh and Louise too!! For your time and advises I love always!!!

I'm in a sway mood...

2008-05-14T07:32:00.000-07:00

I feel so stupid and silly!!! That been fool once, twice and now I'm still a stupid fool!!! Why God!! Why are you doing this yo me? When i was sad, depressed and about to give up on him you give me hope again!! why is this?? Although I know that everything happened for a reason, but still why are you playing this complicated feelings games!! It wasn't fun at all... Just now at AFD, I was so aggravated hearing voice. But other half of me told to tolerate and keep contiune to like him.. sigh!!

After AFD class, Prema, Irazh, Faiz and me rushed to Tampines, Century Square, Food Culture and eat. After eating I told them about the inccident. Then Prema and Irazh gave me a advised to move forward and make a initiative to messaged him first!! But I was very nervous. Then I decided to text him a message and ask him about the Cash Discount, cash and Bank Book thingy and etc... It's so complicated but still ok la!! Then I waited and waited for him to reply. But there wasn't any messages. Then when about 11.30 pm. I heard my phone rang. Then I went to taka look who this person was. At first I thought it was my friend. But when i looked at my phone, the message like weird. Then I looked at the named WOW it was him oh my!! But I told myelf not to execpt so much.

I think this lyrics was so true!!

This was by New Horizon - Only Reminds Me of You

Verse 1:

I see you, beside me

It's only a dream

A vision of what used to be

The laughter, the sorrow

Pictures in time

Fading to memories

How could I ever let you go

Is it too late to let you know

Chorus:

I tried to run from your side

But each place I hide

It only reminds me of you

When i turn out all the lights

Even the night

It only reminds me of you

Verse 2:

I needed my freedom

That's what I've thought

But I was a fool to believe

My heart lied while you cried

Rivers of tears

But I was too blind to see

Everything we've been through before

Now it means so much more the end

I tried to run from your side

But each place I hide

It only reminds me of you

When I turn out all the light

Even the night

It only reminds me of you

Only you…

So come back to me

I'm down on my knees

Boy can't you see…

How could I ever let you go

Is it too late to let you know

I tried to run from your side

But each place I hide

It only reminds me of you

When I turn out all the lights

Even the night

It only reminds me of you

I tried to run from your side

But each place I hide

It only reminds me of you

When I turn out all the lights

Even the night

It only reminds me of you

You, You,

It only reminds me of you!!!

What should i do? Should I contiune to like him or just give up. I think no one can help me not even God!! I have to depend on myself!! I still believe there's God around!!

Ok!! I 'll again soon ok!!

Love vs Like

2008-05-09T02:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday morning, When i woke up, everthing in my mind was blank, no emotion at all. Like all my feelings all mixed around only execpt cursioutiy and puzzled. I didn't know y. But just suddenly i have no nice memories about him cause normally i saw him i will be crazy like a moron". So yup!! I have nothing. But instead of that i suddenly turned into a emo state for awhile!!!Then just a sudden of flashback memories came along. I flashed about when i first started have crush in Kindergarden days until now. i relised the crushes and adimring you, me, him and her are totally rubbish and it is not love but like. It was just a feeling for someone you saw and wanna know this person more. Love, this word is a very sceretive, suspicious and mystious. And alot of people mixed up the word between Love and Like. What are the difference between this two words. Like ya mean by"I like you, or whatever". Like maybe only because you find this guy or this girl very pretty, handsome or just because of this person is rich. But Love, There are lots and many love. There are sister love, family love or what so ever if you really love someone you wouldn't force him/her to do anything they didn't like, there are many things about love. Some of them might had already found their "True Love". But some just wasted their whole youth days and still waiting for this special person for their entire life. For me I haven't find my "True Love" yet. But I think that those fairytales moive are liked influcence the mind of a child and also those are waiting patiently for it to come. I don't really believed in this ever since this person asked me to forgot about him. yup!! But i sometimes also hopes and dream that there such thing as "True Love". I mean I didn't ask to have happy ever after like the fairytales. But I do hope that Ican find someone I really love and my that special someone that i hope to dream of will love me as how I am. Everyone are not prefect, so i will try to change. Love are a complicated topic as well as a fragile.. So cherish what you have now!!!

I simply love the sky and the cloud!!!

2008-05-09T02:18:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!! Finally I had recover from fever 1 week ago... I just simply love to look at the sky and clouds. Cause there are beautiful and when I'm sad, happy or whatever my emotions are. I will just looked at them. Cause I think by looking at it. it makes me wonder wow how beautiful the sky and clouds can be and how luck i am to be on earth see many beautiful things. And also how wonderful can that be when the wind blows the cloud, it forms various shapes and sizes of the cloud. Somwtimes i wonder"Are the cloud trying to tell me something...erm".Yup! When i my day was moody once i looked up at the sky i will slowly calmed myself down. So i am really thankful, blessful and fortune to everything around me!!! Haha I love you all!!!

I don't want FEVER!!!!

2008-04-29T03:57:00.000-07:00

T_T!!!! I don't fever... This virus stick with me for the past two days... Sigh!! sadded!!! Last year i didn't have fever at all.. But this year got fever throat dry.. sigh..

Anyway it was getting more and more interesting!!! My core module that I'm studying now!! except BFD (Boring Fundamental.) haha.... But no matter what i try my very best and study...

Haha.. I think i am really too over towards him sigh... i must calm down abit.. willy wonka willy wonka!!! haha shhhh ( haha i love the moive. It was full of candies and yummy chocolate!!!haha) But can not eat because now fever and throat dry...) I wonder how would be like to see him sing!!!!

I MUST RECOVER SOON!!!

Sigh i really don't nod where to start my project... I going crazy!!!...

All right I've got to go!!! I will blog soon!!!

I think i have a crush.. opps

2008-04-26T05:25:00.000-07:00

Hey long time never blog le!! School had started. New classmate, new friends, new CA, new hope and new journey. I like my class UA0804B... haha... And i think i have a crush with one of my classmate... opps so fast... haha !!!

And i went for drama audition today, it was ok!! i think i did quite well. But the dancing part a little bit messy and i never thought that i can dance quite well. But when i singing part the the judge and the panist said my talking and singing voice didn't match.. quite sad but still alright la. tomorrow i think the results will come out. Oh God bless me!!!

Today NDP very fun and interesting. I've learnt how to balloon structure. I really enjoyed it!!!

Thanks Chloe for asked me to join this year NDP 2008. Although we are in different cluster.. But still thanks so much!!! love ya

Ok I got to go I try to blog soon again!!!

I'm loving it!!!

2008-04-12T08:54:00.000-07:00

Hey!! Wow.. Time passed really soon... So soon that I'm starting my new school term in Higher Nitec Business Admin. Wow nice experoence man!! I also wonder how will be it be like where you are meeting new classmates/ friends, lectures and new courses.. I definitely going to work hard and go poly haha!!! so excited!!! Erm I hope that Louise and I and be in same class haha!! I will pray for Shirley to get into the course that she is appealling... Jia You!!

I got into the audition for NDP 2008. Haha so happy.. But actually it was a trial for two week!! haha
ok!! I dont know when im goin 2 blog again. so i apologise first ok!!! I gtg i will blog soon!!

Love this the Most!!

2008-04-08T13:48:00.000-07:00

I love this outing the most!! Because I think it was because the photo that we took and the movie. Although the was nice n funny but i never see Felicia and Shirley laugh like that before. And the most funniest thing was when Felicia and Shirley wanted to buy another popcorns and they used their seats to climb over. Shirley didn't saw the few stairs over there and fell!! Louise and I were Oh My God!! How she fell down. Sighzz so cute!! I love them!! I miss them... Love them forever!! I'll stop there.. bye

I hope I can be that too!

2008-04-03T22:10:00.000-07:00

What to write lei? It has been quite sometimes since when I got back to Singapore. Haha!! My vacation at Malaysia was fun! All my cousins really grew up fast. As well as my aunts and uncles. I think the wedding dinner at Segemet were better then the one Batu Pahat. And I realised that no wonder how many times we ate the dishes was like all the same. So common!! And the tradition for them to get married was to have 4 gold (include: Necklace, Ring, Bracelet & anklet) from the groom side to bring it to the bride's house. It was so complicated!!

If it is for I think I will refer a little mixture of gold that will be fine and white gold because it is nicely and it is something that you can wear everywhere!! But gold although it will be still valuable whether you often wear or what the price will still be good. But I think gold is so like old and if you wear the gold it is so thick like a loan shark people will think what. haha. I'm so imaginative.

But if I was a bride I will don't really mind gold but I must a nicer gold. For my wedding I don't like the design have lots of details as in seqinues and...Etc. Then I can walk along the aisle my with 'future husband' along the beach or the garden like wedding... then play the romantic song or music oh so sweet. Sigh!! I wonder where will have this "Special Day" to arrive in the future!! Never mind, just wait patiently and wait for the Fate to decide....

I like!!

2008-03-07T02:59:00.000-08:00

I found some pictures that were really very nice!! And i wanna shared with my Friends and my lovely terpines.

Nice or not???

haha enjoy!!

I feeling RELIVED!!! HAHA!!!

2008-03-07T02:40:00.001-08:00

This song is so damn bloodly true. I shouldn't waste my time on a deseperate stranger like him!! So I decided to give up on the feeling of seeing him. WAhaha!!! I would like to thanks my lovely friends for support, advices, care, and all my nuts thinking!! It is so silly and damn!!! because i thought of it again whether to meet him or not. And I was emoing away today, listen to my MP3 wondering how was it when i really steady with. I think i should be true to myself. And i think i jus wanna find someone to like. Like what the movie " The Leap Years" said: i better to have LOVE and LOST, and than never have LOVE at all". and one more is " In Love letter there are a lot of "miss" then "love". haha i think it was very true. And i liked Jason Chan acted as "Raymond" so cute. hahas...Thanks ladies I Love your always. I think my Terpines held me alot too!! Although your not here Thanks!! I love your too I still quite curious how the despo look like!! haha dont nod whatever then better dont think anymore!!!!

Wasted

2008-03-07T02:26:00.000-08:00

"Wasted"Standing at the back door

She tried to make it fast

One tear hit the hard wood

It fell like broken glass

She said sometimes love slips away

And you just can't get it back

Let's face it

For one split second

She almost turned around

But that would be like pouring rain drops

Back into a cloud

So she took another step and said

I see the way out and

I'm gonna' take it

I don't wanna' spend my life jaded

Waiting to wake up one day and find

That I've let all these years go by

Wasted

Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain

So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain

He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday

Gotta face it.

Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded

Waiting to wake up one day and find

That I've let all these years go by

Wasted

Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing

The still of the morning, the color of the night

I ain't spending no more time

Wasted

She kept drivin' along

Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side

He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear

For the first time in a while

Hey, yeah,Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded

Waiting to wake up one day and find

That I've let all these years go by

Wasted

Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing

The still of the morning, the color of the night

I ain't spending no more time

Wasted

Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded

Waiting to wake up one day and find

That I've let all these years go by

Wasted

Yeah, yeah

Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing

The still of the morning, the color of the night

I ain't spending no more time

Wasted

By Carrie Underwood

I am very confused!!!

2008-03-06T03:48:00.000-08:00

I really told myself not to think, but I still thought of it. It was really irritating?? Why am I even think about it?? This is nonsense and insane... I'm so stupid, confused and angry about myself... What is this... Why did I even accepted and agreed chat with a person that I don't know and refuse to show his picture to me? This is ridiculous!! Oh My God... Silly me.. I think i really need a reflextion!! Before it hurt anyone else..

Dear Friends

I really don't mind your to post your comment. Hope to you can suggested what to do???
I'm going NUTS..

Oh My! Are you Kidding

2008-03-05T04:22:00.000-08:00

Part Three

Then I messaged one of my friends. She was like shocked. She said “OMG then what did I said. I told her everything. She gave me advises that better not meet him cause I doesn’t know him. But she said if I want to meet him she wanted to tag along with me. Haha. I think so to I was also about to ask her. But I think was like why last time when I liked those people why they don’t me. The fate was really making fun of me. Then the person that I don’t like, keep coming. Sigh whatever what’s over had over. Like what I said everything happened for a reason... ok I‘ll stop here good bye!!

Oh My! Are you kidding!

2008-03-05T04:05:00.000-08:00

Part Two

So I started chatting with him, then he started asking me, whether am I looking for fling? I was like “huh” and I asked him what is fling? He told me that was looking for for someone like boyfriend. Of course I said No I’m not, cause I said that I want to concentrate on my studies first. Then I’m thinking is he too desire to find a girlfriend. I mean a young guy like him still have alot of opportunity and got so many pretty and nice girls outside. Why me? And my situation was I think I’m not ready to have a relationship! So never mind!!

Then few days later, I decided to chat with him on MSN to jus make friend and see how he is like in the conservations. He still did not give up. He asked me where I stayed. Where am I studying all this? Then I was quite shocked because he asked me whether he can meet me or not. I said I never even see you before. Then I requested that: why not you put picture at your display area. He said if you meet me then he show me. I said I thought you said that you are very handsome why no girlfriends. He said got mah?? I said got. He said oh I was just kidding one. I said oh, but I said you must confident ma? He said if I be his girlfriend then he will be confident. I was like the.…

I replied: oh. Then when I was about to go offline and i said i'll chat with you tomorrow. He said ok bye then he said I’m looking forward to become your first boyfriend.
I was going to faint and die.

Continue on to Part Three

Oh My! Are you kidding?

2008-03-04T12:02:00.000-08:00

Part One

It is true? Is God trying to make fun of me? That was really ridiculous! Why is this happen on me.

I said this was because this few days, it was really slacking away at home. And of course processed with my diet lesson at home. I planned my habits of eating, as well as exercise at home, like crunches, warm up, shake here and there and of course practice my vocal at night in shower. Because I wanted to get ready for my next audition on April when I start first day of school Haha. I think it must be noisy hehe. But still I continue to sing.

This was a really ridiculous thing. Because I was playing online game in some website. And using my sister account to play then this guy suddenly chatted with on a private conservation window.

Go to Part Two!!

I'm sad and disappointed

2008-03-04T12:00:00.000-08:00

On the day of the audition I was so scared and nervous. Then when I saw my marking for dancing and acting part I got sad. Because I got one mark each out of three points. Then Sunday morning, Mr Lim messages me about whether we got in or not. The result was I didn’t got in. I was so sad that Saturday night I cried out already. Sigh. Then I kept thinking and thinking and asked myself “What did I do wrong”. It goes on and on in my mind. I need to reflex.

I messaged one of my friends that were one of the stage crew members. I told her about my bad news. Now I’m trying to search for songs, scripts that related to the musical. No matter what I must try my best to get in. Even if there isn’t any audition for next intake I will treat it as an experience and do well next year

Happy Graduation Day!!!

2008-02-25T12:02:00.000-08:00

It was really a happening day! I will surely missed Louise, Xue Li, Felicia and Aini.
And of course those lectures who taught us before...

Especially POTATO, Miss Ng, Mrs Sim and many more..

The stupid shoe of mine made me embarrassed. I all most injured my foot more than some 3 times.

Another incident, was we were about to go catch a movie in Cineleisure. So we were on our with Louise’s friend. We bored the bus to Tanah Merah MRT station. When I was about to climb up my last step of the bus stairs, my stupid shoe dropped in font of all the people. I was like “Oh my gosh”. I’m so embarrassed. Sigh… Anyway I really loved the movie that we watched.

It was called P.S I Love You. It was a sad, funny, romance and comedy movie. The guy who acted with Hilary Swank was really sweet and funny. If even I can meet someone like him that will be quite cool!!!

Love My Friends a lot ….

So cute haha!!

2008-02-20T08:16:00.000-08:00

Hi,

It’s me… long time never blog le. Now I didn’t work anymore!! Bcos of e stupid boss la!! Hump.. nvr mind also good la can lack at home.. hehe

Anyway I’m going crazy.. The guy in the korea drama “Famous Princesses”. He is so cute and caring. In that show he act as a subordinate of Madam call “ Xue Qi”.. He was his asistant. And he fell in love with her.. but the madam don't like him because she liked a guy that doesn't her and the guy liked her third sister.. Haha wow this is so complicated This is a MUST watch show. He is so sweet, caring and cute.. im really goin crazy.. hope that I can find someone like that. heehe

This is his picture:

Oh ya he is a singer too!! so talented!!

More photos of him hehe!!

So handsome!! my goodness. This is awesome!!

Love You always!! hehe

Hi it's me!!

2008-01-28T09:36:00.000-08:00

Hey my friends...

I apologised about i long time didn't update my blog haha!! I'm pretty busy nowadays. Because the stupid workplace i'm doin.. i thought through now that i am so tian zhen that will believe in her words.. Oh my i'm so stupid!! I felt like saying everything out. Cause if you see the way she did things were so unbelieveable.. ok i will continue tomorrow ok!!

My blessed 17th Birthday!!

2007-10-10T09:48:00.000-07:00

Today was my 17th birthday!! I felt that i'm so blessed to be borned, to met those friends, my family,sisters parents. wooh!! I'm so blessed!! without them i will be so bless.

Yesterday it was really a susprised, put up by my two lovely sisters!! Because i'm inside the bathroom bathing. Then suddenly i saw a light, at first i thought it was some kind of bug or what ever. i didn't bother. then when i finished bathing i was a to open the door, then my sister sang birthday song together with the firework stick (i don't how to call tat). Then below me was a cute strawberry cake heart shape 1 hehe. They bought a wallet for me and a Nokia phone oh my gosh!!! Then when i went for drama. They wished me a happy birthday, some gave presents and card as well as a prima deli brownie hehe so cute!!! Thanks for everything!!!! Even they had no present it was all right ok... Love you guys!! And also those who messaged me and sang birthday song @ the studio!! hehe

I'm blessed with you around;

i'm blessed when i see you;

i'm blessed when i'm here with you

All the blessing i will kept them inside my heart.

Thank You!!

Time is like Spring!!

2007-10-05T11:09:00.000-07:00

Sorry so long never upload le! Mainly was because this week I'm having my IA so very busy and tried haha. Secondly was also because of drama cause the production are coming on the 9 and 10 November haha so nervous lo!! So have i have to try my best 2 memories my lines. Now my lines ok ok lo! About 70% haha. And my right eye is swollen T_T sighz!! Then Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday got practice haha so excited and nervous. Hope I can memories my lines soon yeah!! I can do it!! WAHAHA.. IF THOSE WHOSE WHO ONE COME AND WATCH THE PRODUCTION, PLS MSG OR ASK ME ON MSN FOR MORE DETAILS. Thanks!!

Times passed soon enough;

All we can do is to treasure the time and do whatever you want do or say,

And never regret it!!!

So I will never do things that will make myself regret!

what about you my fellow friends?

Is there something that you wanted to do or say to friends and family but doesn't have the gut to say?

If yes do it NOW!

Do remember, Don' t regret!! And be proud of what you are doing!

Encourage yourself to do it!!

TIME, FLY SOON ENOUGH!!!

Time is getting away!!

Take time seriously!!

Today is Mid-Autumn Festival!

2007-09-25T07:50:00.000-07:00

Today was Mid-Autumn Festival! It was so so fun!! Bcos we got to spend one last time with my good friends before our IA (Industrial Attachment) start. So we went Picnic @ East Coast Park. I met two of them @ Boon Keng MRT Control Station. Then my other friend came in a very fast mode haha. Cos we said whoever is late have to drink. Humph although she was the last one to come but the wasn't up yet!! arr!! after that we made our way to Parkway Parade to meet our other friend. After that we started walking to my dear SEA haha!! We set up, put our mats and start to eat. ohoh it was so nice. We have sandwitches i made one haha! Then snacks & drinks. The sandwitch included Tuna, eggs, ham, chips and some Sasa sauce. Then that 3 of my friends went cycling, then two of us playing the sea water. I was quite scared cos i'm afriad later got biten by Jellyfish yucks! But when i went in, it was so comfortable n when we went deeper the water is cold so cool! We played for about 2 hours. I stepped on seashell or something hard. It was quite scarely. But not really that long la in the middle we went back to the shore to have some food. I enjoyed the blowing of the wind. Love it. Then we started packing when they came back we sat on the brench. We went to wash ourselve up!! Then we took some photos ya haha!! Really enjoy myself alot thanks Louise for organised this lovely picnic!! I will update the pictures soon!!

I created a blog

2007-09-20T10:30:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!

I created a blog haha.. Just don't know why.. so suddenly.

Ya but anyway pls go link me!!

Miss Drama=p

Shu Min